Here We Go.....

AGAIN! Today marks the 17th week of my pregnancy, and at this point, I realized how different this journey has been then it was with Emmalee.  Everything happens so FAST!  My growth, the babies growth, and the passing of time! I felt the baby for the first time this weekend.  A fluid like jolt that brought a smile and excitement.  It is hard to remember what the feeling of having a little life inside you is like, until you are there again.  Often times I get so caught up in the present, with being with Emmalee, the days I work, spending time with family, friends, keeping a house running, etc., that I am not always stopping and having an awareness of this pregnancy like I did with the first. I remember ALWAYS being aware of my pregnancy when I was awaiting Emma.  EVERYTHING was about her and me, and the experience.  Now, I have such a different life to balance with being pregnant, that it makes me sad at times that I don't have the same constant awareness. However, the beauty is that when I do stop, and think, I have an overwhelming feeling of thankfulness for this second little blessing, and I am absolutely full of joy, excitement, and anticipation!  Don't get me wrong, I am nervous too, especially in the beginning, I was so anxious thinking about balancing two precious lives.  More recently I have simply wrapped my brain around the truth, the fact that it is going to be hard, and stressful, but also the most glorious task that could ever exist.  I get to be a mom to TWO little amazing babies, and they are MINE!  In preparing Emmalee for baby two's arrival, I have been teaching her not to not jump, kick, or tackle my tummy, and now she tells me there is a baby in my tummy, or mommy has a tummy ache.  I can not tell you how that feels!!!  Hearing my precious angel speak words that acknowledge my soon to arrive blessing and her little sister/or brother!  It is absolutely amazing!  As time passes I look forward to falling more and more in love with this little life that will introduce his or herself to us in March. No, we are not finding out the gender....again =)